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Posted on
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I fear that I'll sink this ship, and drag us both down
I think I managed to defy fate the day I met you. I truly believe if the paradox of fate existed, you would of never been more than a nice thought in my head. Its interesting then that without a second thought I would sacrifice all I have been able to achieve, for you, the boy I was never meant to know. It's when you hold eye contact for that second too long or maybe the way you laugh. It sets off a flash and our memories take a picture of who we are at that point when we first know "This is love." And we clutch that picture to our hearts because we expect each other to always be the people in that picture. But people change. People aren't pictures. And you can either take a new picture or throw the old one away, if you get what I mean.Summary of today, 9 July 2009.
Since you know you're going away, far away from me for about almost a week, you made the choice that we should meet. And so we did, it was a mere 20 minutes of almost nothing. Our conversation was like 4 sentences long. When we went out separate ways, all I expected was a goodbye hug that I hope could last me for a couple of days. But no, not at all. I am disappointed because voices came running into my mind and I finally realised, you take me to be yours not because you truly loves me. It is something everyone had expected it to be, right from the start. No matter what, we're still clinging on for no apparent reason but one. Are you afraid to be the bad guy to declare it off?
