HEIDI

2011-10-24T01:21:00.002+08:00

There are days that are meant to be remembered and some are better off forgotten.
Hi diary, its 24th October 2011. I finally have that eenie meenie bit of mood to blog. And i know, no one would read this post except for me. Glad to say that my boyfriend & i are almost 1yr 4mths together. And there is no way i'm gonna put a stop t this relationship cos right now i love him like only God knows & i truly believe that he is the only one that will go the extra mile for me. Anyway, just wanna let out something. I love my boyfriend so much, except or the times when he scolded me for multiple times like as if i do not understand, when he purposely spit sarcasm shit into my face and when he starts to play rough with me. I hope he would think twice next time if he reads this. Life's been really good for me lately. And i'm grateful to have such a loving family, faithful boyfriend & fun colleagues. Gdnight!

2011-08-10T14:14:00.001+08:00

1 year 1 month had passed.

13 months gone.

We're still holding on strong.

I love you my baby boy.

2011-06-26T17:24:00.002+08:00

Its been months since I've updated my blog. Been busy with life, I rarely have the time. My life have been through so many heartbreaks, disappointment, happiness and joy. On a brighter note, I'm still with Imran. Almost a year now. I'm happy being with him, but the longer we're together, the less happy I get. I have no idea if it's my mistake or what went wrong. We just changed into someone we said we'll never be. I just can't stop crying everyday, remembering the words he had spitted at me. I don't understand why the guy I've always love would hurt me at the end of the day. The just won't continue loving me like they did since we started. Apologies, can't help it. Guess I shall stop for now.

2011-03-28T21:14:00.003+08:00

I was hoping for USS with you specially on your belated 23rd or maybe our advance 9th. I just couldn't believe I made the decision to walk out even though deep down I love you, so much. But I can't afford to keep on hurting you and you'll keep on spitting criticism on me. I am hard on you because thats how I am. I may not be the best girlfriend you ever had, but I just wanna let you know, you were my longest & bestest boyfriend ever who had took great care of me with every inch of your courage. The one who taught me love. I had experience 9 months of pure bliss, true love and just perfect guy ever.

2011-01-23T18:23:00.001+08:00

This is for you since this song below couldn't get in your head.

Boring to the max

2011-01-10T09:58:00.003+08:00

Can't sleep since 6am this morning. Well, I slept at 3-6am earlier and now I can't seem to put myself to sleep. No, I didn't took any form of drugs if that's what you thought, mister. It's just insomnia. Time check: 10am now. I think I'm going to try to sleep if not, by 10.30am I shall

Things to do:

-Bathe till 11am

-Play dress up till 11.30am

-Eat till 12pm

-Watch TV to kill time till 1pm

-Curl my hair till 2pm

-Make up & get my things ready by 3pm

-Clean my room till 4pm

Things I need to remember to bring: Camera

Once I'm done, I shall wait till everyone got ready & I'm out! Oh btw I'm heading out with Boyfriend, Ieka & friend later ;D

Plans: Taking photos, Movies, Ice-skating.

P.s: Some plans might be cancelled should there be any rain, time constraint, money constraint whatsoever.

6th

2011-01-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

Happy 6th monthsary to us! First boy to almost everything. Never felt love like this before. My boyfriend's a keeper and I'm definitely keeping him. I will try to change and stop being so annoying to the extend whereby it will jeaopardize this relationship. Love you to bits baby! See you later small kiddo :)

030111

2011-01-03T14:57:00.006+08:00

First & foremost, Happy New Year everyone. I enjoyed my new year with Imran at Zouk, dancing to Marco V's set. But we spent most of the time smoking outside basically because of the overwhelming crowd. It was amazingly squeezy, I can hardly dance. I wasn't concentrating much on whats happening around me, all I remembered was I was swaying from side to side. It looked stupid, okay? Whatever it is, I had fun. Hailing for cab was frustrating due to high demand. Duh, we all know it was PH so Imran & I slowly searched for 1. Finally, we cab to Yishun to chill. So that was how I celebrated my New Year 2011.

4 days to our 6th Monthsary. I have no idea how are we going to celebrate it. Dash Berlin, maybe? Lol. I still remember Dash Berlin's event at Zouk on 3rd July 2010, it was our first time partying together. That event made us close to each other. How I miss the old times! Oh by the way, I had jeopardize my career on 15 December 2010, causing me to be jobless now with zero money in my pocket. Managed to settle 2 months unsettled bill which cost me $259. Phew! But you know, the temptation of shopping for apparels is too hard to resist. I just wish I have enough money to splurge on apparels, especially new tops! :(

Imran & I had been through numerous tiffs which has exceeded my tolerance so eventually I chose to walk out, but it wasn't for long. That boy never fails to show me love & made me see how blatant the love is. I tried so hard to convince myself he's true. Mhm, I just hope there won't be anymore disappointments in future :)

Sad

2010-11-02T02:22:00.003+08:00

It's 2.24am in the morning. I've yet to have my beauty sleep, fuck insomnia. I need my daily dose of affection! Sigh. How an irritant NS can be, huh? Anyway, I just realised how dead my blog is. Apologies for the super lack of updates. Well, I'm pretty occupied these days. So, let's talk about work first. Mhm, work has been pretty fine but I'm still a lazybum. MCs here & there. Hopefully I won't get terminated soon. Working later at 8-4.30pm. Zzz. May time flies ok please. Aha. Ok moving on.. Boyfriend & I have been going through some massive arguements but we managed to pull through because our love is strong like that. So, yeah I'm head over heals in love with boyfriend so I'll try my best to make it last :) Can't wait to meet him!!!!!! I just wish he's with me 24/7 :( Our 4th Month this coming Sunday. His lucky number, & mine too. Just pray the best for us both.

2010-10-08T19:40:00.004+08:00

It was our 3rd month yesterday. The day went out well until his bag was stolen at Cineleisure while we were both busy taking photos of ourselves. Well, luck wasn't on his side but fret not, everyone had encounter such experiences whereby they've lost their valueables. Recently, I lost mine, Feona lost her too not long ago. So cheer up, boyfriend. Pay day is this coming Friday and I've got loads to shop :) while the boy's pay day is this coming Tuesday. Good for you. He's gonna revamp his bike. Can't wait to see the change! Tomorrow Zouk, yes? It's Carl Cox and since I've got enough money to spend, why not just go out and party? It's been ages. The last time boyfriend and I party together was on our first breakup. See, how long ago? Let's go and club tomorrow baby! Oh and btw, work has been fine. Been working there since June and so far, so good. I've got compliment from my manager. That is so, encouraging!

2010-09-26T18:29:00.002+08:00

My life is pretty much simple nowadays. I've been really occupying my time with boyfriend and we really are going on a smooth journey. We resolve arguements in zero waiting time! He just know how to treat a girl and i'm so lucky to have a boyfriend who loves me wholeheartedly. I shant worry a thing because i know he's one faithful fella. And i shall just ignore other bitches who would wanna flirt with him (Eg. Dance sexily with him in club) Muke macam pantat aku nak jealous for what? Haha. My boyfriend has zero interest so, i shouldnt care less. Gtg work now.

2010-08-29T14:06:00.001+08:00

2010-08-27T22:51:00.003+08:00

I miss you my prince charming. I wanna lay myself beside you and hug you till I sleep. That's how much I miss you. Though I've been dreaming about you a lot, it made me misses you more. See you this Sunday please baby.

2010-08-17T13:12:00.005+08:00

My life cycle is simple. Everyday I'll wake up to go to work. Then I'll come back home and sleep. In between, I made time for my love ones. Well, that's about it. I'm just an ordinary human being who lives a simple life filled with lovable people around. I almost felt like the pinnacle of my life when I got him back. Sometimes, I don't comprehend why some people would want to create trouble and cause me to be in angsty. Eventually, the hatred was developed. And to those people whom I hate, we all have these feelings within us. We're in no control of our emotions, and so please, pardon me for my upmost annoying words that was splat at you, pardon me for my irritating face whenever I look at you. I will annihilate those nasty memories just so my relationship will be healthy again. I'm letting it go for the sake of Imran and our relationship. He wants me to stop hating and start forgetting. Well, he understands me afterall. It's so blatant, ain't it? :)

Sometimes, when things between us are going so bad and I want to give up on you, I remember how you never once gave up on me. And so I hold on a little tighter, and pray to God that everything will be okay soon. I need to know that this pain will all be worth it in the end. I love you, Imran. Always have and always will.

2010-08-15T22:37:00.003+08:00

Back to work tomorrow. I am no longer enthusiasm like how I started months back. Maybe I should you know, do something about this. Oh well... that aside, I'm meeting boyfriend again tomorrow. It's been a norm for us to meet on his off days. So, gonna crack my brains and think of something to do tomorrow. Probably movie, or some other activities. Heh! Anw, second sis just gave birth to Asyirah Qaisara. Fucking cuteeee, welcome to earth, AQ baby :)

2010-08-15T18:53:00.003+08:00

"All I wanted is you.. Thats all"

Nice one but try harder. It ain't working for me now, Imran.

2010-08-12T15:01:00.003+08:00

My boyfriend and I will get our hands on the t-shirt and shoe both of us had been eyeing for. Since his pay is in, and my pay will be in by tonight, we're gonna grab it tomorrow. I can't wait to meet my Imran Minato! :)

2010-08-09T17:54:00.003+08:00

I'm still angry at this girl name, IDAH, for what she did to Imran on 30 July 2010. I understand, people get drunk but can't you control? You look like some cheap slut dancing with other people's boyfriend and you put your hands around him like you're so ready to kiss him. I'm sorry, people, if you're a friend of hers, but just to let you people know. I said this out of anger. Blog is like a platform for me to voice out whatever and whenever I want. So, pardon me for that. Still, I do hold grudges against this IDAH girl whom I don't know her at all personally but I do know she's my used-to-be close friend's ex. And is currently a friend of my friends. Everytime I stumbled onto her profile, this anger instantly made a resurgent. >:(

2010-08-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of all the hurt.

2010-08-08T04:33:00.000+08:00

2010-08-08T04:30:00.000+08:00

I want to believe that love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime.

2010-08-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

2010-08-03T15:00:00.002+08:00

No idea why certain people just have to be too "concern" about my relationship with Imran when they are no one to us. Like for example, that coward who dare not admit its wrong and pushed the blame on me instead and think it could get away like that? Nice one, coward. You've brought jinx to our relationship and caused me to be in dilemma. I have got zero interest in you and yet you think you could persuade me and psycho my mind away with your undeniably sweet talks? Well, no. I love my boyfriend regardless of his looks or what he is. I don't care if he's cute like Ashton Kutcher or cool like Pete Doherty. What matters to me and what impressed me the best is the way he treat me as his girlfriend. I love the way he is not hard on me or controls me the way other boyfriends do, because deep inside I know he actually cares about me. Too blinded with unwanted guest, maybe I took the wrong move. Regretted, and here I am once again. Lesson learnt, and I vowed not to jeopardize our relationship anymore. Glad that things have got better over the weekends and I am proud to say I am in love with Imran and he's the best.

2010-08-02T10:41:00.002+08:00

I met this boy last night and we talked things out. I hope things would get better between us and I'd like us to continue our relationship only when both of us have built understanding between each other. Without that, the history will repeat itself. Glad that we are in talking terms now :) Love you so much, Idiot♥

2010-08-01T16:25:00.001+08:00

2010-07-31T22:18:00.006+08:00

I was watching this religious TV drama over in Sensasi. It just knock some sense into my thick skull. I believe in Allah and He exists. I know what I should do and what I should not do since I have been going to religious class and event until I'm 16. It isn't too late for me to repent though I know I've done way too many sins throughout this 18 years of my life. Something tells me I should start back on my daily prayers. May Allah guide me to the doors of happiness. I know He will keep me calm and relax. And those are only feelings I need to feel right now :) Mum caught my swollen eyes and enquired why. Actual reason, cried too much. But told mum I got lack of sleep. Heh! You'll get a shock to see how my eyes have become. Alright, yada yada I am so lazy to blog about the "hot" issues that happened to me recently but let's just say people make mistakes? I hope both party will forgive me for causing the fight. My fault afterall. And I've once made the choice to leave both of them and now I got it. Need I regret anything? Absolutely not. Though I begged for Imran to not walk out on me, he insisted. What I can do is nothing but to let him go. It happened so rarely for me to begged and cried for a guy. I feel so ashamed, I shall never repeat that ever in my life. Talked to his friends and they adviced me to give him time. We'll see how it goes but I got a strong feeling Imran won't be coming back to me 'cause I've caused him to be extremely furious and I guess, hatred is all that he see in me now. It's embarrassing to see you ending a relationship in which you've put your trust, love and effort in to. What a waste, such a waste.

2010-07-31T20:03:00.006+08:00

First boy to ever made me cry for the past 12 hours.
First boy to ever give me an impact.
I love him too much, I guess?
But it's over now.
Though I am extremely sad, though I am crying while typing this,
nothing will change.
I hope he's happier now.
Idiotlove, I still love you even when you chose to walk out on me.
I am always here if you need me, always.
Just so you know, I am only a call away.

2010-07-24T15:46:00.000+08:00

A night to remember.
You finally show your flare, and vent your anger at me.

2010-07-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

I love you, Idiot!

2010-07-17T08:05:00.000+08:00

If only....

2010-07-16T13:32:00.000+08:00

I love Imran!

2010-07-13T14:01:00.002+08:00

boyfriend saw what i posted before this. i am so stupid can? sigh. last night, i was in major confusion because there were way too many people disapprove me of being in a relationship with him. specifically, because of his tattoos. but yeah, i suddenly thought of someone else. due to the fact that he has been talking about me in his profile. due to the fact that what i accused him aren't confirmed. but then again, when texting faan(his friend), i cleared my doubts. i aint in confusion no more. what he said is true. for now, i shan't regret anything but focus on my relationship with love. honestly, i am happy with imran. so fucking happy. and i don't wanna jeopardize my happy relationship because of the past.
imran love, i'm sorry. i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

2010-07-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

Can't help this feelings but.....

Dear boy with blue jersey number 22,
I MISS YOU.

2010-07-10T23:11:00.007+08:00

You don't need to take time when it comes to loving someone. It's all about how they made you feel instantly whenever you're physically with them. And it's all about how much effort they made to ensure and prove to you they honestly love you. What Imran did to me was nothing wrong. Imran made the first move, HE DID NOT. Imran convinced me, HE DID NOT. Imran made time for me no matter how tired he is, HE DID NOT BOTHER AT ALL. And look, this guilty pleasure has been haunting me down since Day 1 itself and I tell you, it's driving me hell.

Been meeting Imran for way too many times and I'm not sick of it. Like last Tuesday, it was Cuscaden. Thursday was drinking session at suicide bridge followed by more lepakk. Friday was pool, followed by another drinking session at Esplanade. Throughout this meet up, Ieka, Axwell, Fazil, McKay and a lot others were there as well!

Yesterday, Imran, Ieka, Axwell and myself checked in after drinking at Esplande and we were all dead tired okay. Especially me. 'Cause I slept first, followed by the rest of them. Ieka ain't a drinker so, good for her she ain't as tired as I am. Imran said I was shivering the whole time(And how could I not realise myself shivering while sleeping?) Woke up with a sore on my right eye. It wasn't easy for me to wake up. But on a brighter note, I had an awesome time with them and especially Imran 'cause I'm so glad he bothered to make time for me despite working the next day. I just love him for the way he cares about me. Like, he would always ask me out and ensures I am happy being around him. Can't wait to meet him tomorrow. It'll be either Despicable Me or Eclipse! And next week, I'm gonna get my hands on Canon EOS 550d or 1000d, plus an iPhone!

You know you love me,
xoxo
HeidiMinato

2010-07-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

2010-07-07T14:28:00.005+08:00

Good things end so better things can fall in place.

2010-07-06T15:08:00.007+08:00

Yawn.

Boys, anything new?

I'm sick of these typical games.

I'm always the one behaving.

And the boys are the ones being naughty.

2010-07-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

2010-07-04T21:42:00.008+08:00

P/s: I can't be bothered anymore. Whatever happen, happen. If it's meant to be then so be it. I'll let nature take its course. I call it fate. So, chin up Heidi. But this doesn't mean I'm giving up. I'm just taking a step back. You've lost half of me. 'Cause I ain't giving my all no more, I'm giving my half. Told ya, you only get one shot :)

2010-07-04T18:10:00.003+08:00

FML.

2010-07-03T21:50:00.009+08:00

Dash Berlin was a blast last night.

2010-07-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

Taylor Momsen.
F'king sexyy

There is no longer you and I

2010-06-30T20:11:00.002+08:00

"I know you fool around all day,
now it doesn't hurt me anyway.
I am alright."

I am addicted to this song since last year! Love the beat and lyrics.

Sigrid Argen!

2010-06-28T19:37:00.003+08:00

I was on Fashion TV a while ago and this model was featured. Damn, I envy her. She's a runway model for Prada, Dior, Nina Ricci, YSL, Louis Vuitton, Armani Jeans and so so much more! And due to the fact that she's got a lot of shows, she said this. "After the show, we didn't have time to party. We only had dinner. Sleep, and the next day, another show again."

ONEDERLUST

2010-06-26T13:35:00.005+08:00

Feona and I (HAHA!)

Last night was awesome because Feona, Weah and I danced on the podium together for the first time. And I wasn't drunk at all. Just tipsy :) Danced for hours. The last hour, I danced with my guy friends and it was irritating because there was this guy who purposely stood behind me just so he could touch my ass. Me don't like. Me like dancing alone with no one involved or disturb! At the end of the day, Feona and I hailed a cab home and I was shagged! This is my second time partying hard and it was all worth it. 2nd July, die die go

truee

2010-06-24T22:56:00.001+08:00

"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."
-Chuck Palahniuk

get high n say goodbye

2010-06-24T19:00:00.006+08:00

Tomorrow will be my night. Let's party! By then I am finally done with work for the week.

ONEDERLUST.

2010-06-17T20:16:00.003+08:00

I love boys who wear like this! But ditch the tie of course. He look so, yummy. Hot okay! Haha. Boys look extra cute with a blazer on. :D

maciam shials.

2010-06-15T20:37:00.004+08:00

Today, my fever has got worst! The cyst in my eye made a resurgence after whaaaat, almost a year? Fuckyou. There's a lot of tissues on my table because I kept sneezing. What's more, PMS. Pfft. Can't wait for tomorrow's hunt with Feeona Bilson. Hope my fever gets better. :)

High-cut sneakers & booties are the shit

2010-06-13T23:42:00.005+08:00

So earlier I went Suntec... alone! Because my brother didn't inform me that they went ECP instead. So I went town to meet Razaq & Fazil. They were having their smoke break. After that I met Lufee, Fares and the rest. We roam around town and had KFC for supper. Chilled till 10.30pm when I received a call from mum that second sis is at home! :D Went home in full enthusiasm and anxiousness. Haha.

AKU NAK RAMBOT EXACTLY LIKE SIENNA MILLER PLEASE!

Remember I upload photos of her way back in 2008? She's still my idol up till now. I love it when her fringe is shorter and she would tie her hair half like in the movie "Alfie". There was once during briefing at work, last month or the month before, Nora (Visual-merchandiser) made me represent as one of the cone-shape body figure and she said I'd look good in Bootcut jeans, Flare jeans, Boyfriend and Wideleg jeans. Because my lower body is thinner. Lol. Since then, I started to survey for Flare & Boyfriend jeans. I cannot wear high-waisted and skinny jeans. Shucks! Gonna ditch those jeans from now. Hehhe.

Goodbye

2010-06-11T02:21:00.002+08:00

WeLoveHouse tomorrow night.
I will spend the night productively with the bunch of friends.
But earlier on that day, movie with S! :)

You see me

2010-06-09T21:59:00.001+08:00

Cheap Monday on a Monday. Had fun with Ieka, Razaq, Fazil and An till 6.30am :D

rock n roll.

2010-06-07T03:06:00.002+08:00

today, i am so triumphant due to retail therapy i had earlier on with my colleague, razaq. yelarr, saperr nak kluar dgn aku lagyy. semuerr sibuk dgn hal sendiryy yerr. might be going st james this wednesday with abg2 dan kakak2. hehh. have to check my roster tomorrow yeahh. anw, i was karaoke-ing just now till 2am and it was... fun! razaq went all out. he vent his anger by screaming his lungs out just now. putus cinta ehhk? lol. me? i was cool the whole time tho i know my voice got sucky after awhile. he said i sounded ok when i sang OOPSY DAISY! cheyy. okk lahh nk tido nih besok sayerr keje petang. aku miss kejer! dah 3 hary tak datang. psl ape? psl aku dikenakan kejer 4 haryy seminggu. ni lah budak2 yg dikenakan kejer 6 haryy tapy sukerr tak datang tak datangg. itu lah aku. k dahh boring. bye~

Cuscaden

2010-06-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

WE LOVE TUESDAYS

Grabbed from Nissy.

Babe

2010-06-03T07:35:00.002+08:00

He called me at 6.40am just to say "I miss you."
How cute is my ex-boyfriend,
though we argued last night about him not picking up my calls.
Sorry, babe. I always jump to conclusion and yes, I get jealous easily.
I miss you more :')

2010-05-26T21:22:00.004+08:00

will officially be out of my current job on 2nd june 2010. time for me to go job hunting back again like how i was before. sometimes, i got this urge to school again. but i know, it's gonna be a waste of time! so yeah, fuck it. and now, i am busy with my own life with new circle of friends and probably new job and definitely a new boy :) i've to quit living with my past because i finally realize that second chances are bullshit! :)

dear h♥ , you got this heart beating again! ^^

he said this song's for me

Saving money does help! But I can't help but to shop!

2010-05-24T00:10:00.007+08:00

This week's pay, I splurge on Salvatore Ferragamo Charms perfume and Agnes B. tote bag. And I will be spending approx $50 this Friday for Zouk! Bob Sinclar is a must!! :D Can't wait.

22 May 2010

2010-05-23T01:03:00.004+08:00

H: Nak keluar? Boringgg.
O: I tkde duit. Lain lah kalau you nak top up kan ezlink I.
H: Ok laa. I top up kan ezlink you.
O: Nak pegi mane?
H: Gy town jom. Boringgg uh.
O: Klua kul pe?
H: 6pm?
O: 8pm boleh?

I waited for this boy at Sembawang exactly at 8pm. Was asked to wait at the bus stop. Ended up, he was at the control station, which doesn't make sense at all. It was nearer if I waited at the control station instead of the bus stop. I sense something very fishy. Thought he went to meet up a girl or something. (Even if he did met up a girl, what's there to hide anyway?) Once I saw him, we smiled at each other, knowing that it has been almost a month or so since we've last met. Smoke and then he asked me to go forward, he then stopped at this scrambler and carried the helmet that was hung on the handle. I was like WHAT? He somehow surprised me with his new bike (which doesn't look new at all). Almost two weeks we haven't actually keep in touch, suddenly he got a WR already. Moving on, I was wow-ed the moment I sat on his bike because I never really thought he would own a bike this fast? Oh well, I didn't actually top up his ezlink but I had to pay for the petrol.

O: You pegi bayar pakai you punye nets.
H: I yang kene bayar?
O: Oh takleh ar?
H: Asal I yang kene bayar?
O: Takleh??
H: *Silent and walked to the cashier*

See, I am such a good ex-girlfriend. Pfft. To think that he has made it convenient for me (and him) to be travelling with a bike, I was OK with paying the petrol because we had been roaming around Woodlands and Admiralty just to find any 24-hour clinic, but to no avail. We went Al-Ameen for a while and he sent me home. It wasn't a great Saturday though. But yeah, at least something. Had a great catch-up session with O(gy)

Forever 21

2010-05-20T11:52:00.007+08:00

Selling off my items.
E-mail me at fcukjunkies@live.com for further enquiries :)

Blazer in solid Navy
Size S
$35

Cropped top
Size S
$15
RESERVED

Leopard print shades in brown
$5

Heritage 1981 cropped top
Size S
$15

Black sandal
Size 37
$10

Splatter paint denim shorts
Size 27
$30

Heritage 1981 tube top
Size S
$15

Bikini top in Black/Red
Size S
$15

Tanktop
Size S
$10

High waisted denim
Size 26
$20

Black romper
Size S
$25

Heritage 1981 khaki cargo jacket
Size S
$25

Slouchy white top

Size S
$15

2010-05-17T02:34:00.003+08:00

i am looking forward for the movie date this sunday. it has been some time since i go on dates. someone slapped me and woke me up recently. yeah, i do deserve someone better. why make him a priority when he only made me an option? why give a cup full when he only gave half of it? so, i'm moving on :) anyway, work has never been this pressurising ever. i'm trying to get a hold of it. you see, i may look arrogant or whatever but if you talk to me, i'm nice. it's just because i'm not really friendly, people think of me the other way round. and when i'm too nice, people took advantage. sigh. work is just as the same as school! i miss my friends. :(

2010-05-14T02:47:00.001+08:00

updating via samsung corby pro. sucks, yet i desperately update. life has been good. it started off sucky few weeks back because O and Z left me :( but now, both come back looking for me because they've realised their mistake. but anw, i chose to be with Z because he has been the nice guy all along though he did shit once, i did it too. glad things are back like before, and getting better. work is... well, as per normal, been busy with new stocks coming in. i swear time will fly tmr while i replenish! cant wait! i+wont+be+having+any+plans+after+work+:(+what+can+i+do+after+6pm?+Z+will+be+sleeping+at+home.+O+will+book+out+at+night.+haha+who+cares+about+O?+guess+i'll+end+up+with+an+impromptu+plan?+2.40am+now.+approx+3.5hrs+to+go+get+ready+for+work.+ahh+i+hate+waking+up+so+early.+but+i+love+my+job.+:)+and+most+of+all,+i+love+my+Z!

2010-05-07T00:57:00.002+08:00

I can't seem to put myself to sleep though my body is dead tired and shagged. I'm thinking too much shit! The ex boyfriend came back and I can't stop thinking about him. You see, when it comes to relationships, I'm the kind who put my 100% because I thought by doing so, it will keep the relationship alive but no, it hurts. O, thanks for the come back but honestly, I need to move on. I don't wanna be stuck with you when you refuse to commit. I miss you and I miss how we were but now that things change, you have to change too. I have no idea why, after you did shit and crap to me, I still gave you the chance to be in contact with me. I am not a happy girl now because even after the break up, we still fought over the littlest things. Sometimes, I need you. Sometimes, I'll just fuck it.. Go away, get out of my life, I don't need you. All I ever need is someone who's got good personality. Good enough to not hurt me.

happy-go-lucky

2010-04-30T11:31:00.003+08:00

HIATUS

Will be back once I got the time to update.
FYI, I'm still alive and yes, I am doing well with my life.
Working life and social life is a bliss.
I am contented & you don't have to worry.:)

Disappointed.

2010-04-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

Because right from the start, I knew you were treating me as a rebound. See the obvious now? When she wasn't there, I'm here. When she is there, you left me and put me to aside. Well, all along you're just living a lie, and you're contradicting yourself too. Face it. Agree with me because you can't judge yourself, can you?

i likeee

2010-04-16T19:42:00.001+08:00

sad

2010-04-16T19:33:00.000+08:00

'cause everytime this song came up, the only person i'm thinking of is z.

which one?

2010-04-11T15:50:00.003+08:00

pay day is in approx 9 days left. i've been contemplating whether to buy an iTouch or Nikon D3000 or iPhone 3GS or revamp my hair. need some suggestions from 'em friends.

i love you

2010-04-10T16:40:00.002+08:00

took MC just now. so happy! 2 days MC. but it won't make any different because i'm OFF tomorrow. so excited about sister's wedding later and tomorrow. it sure gonna be real hectic but heck, this doesn't come everyday so i'll cherish every second of it :)

2010-04-05T19:35:00.001+08:00

Loyal

2010-04-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

aku suke

2010-03-31T16:17:00.001+08:00

Monocrome by Dee Seconds featuring Vans shoes

Yes.

2010-03-31T14:44:00.001+08:00

Baby you know I'm no good.

HEH HEH

2010-03-31T14:43:00.000+08:00

MY BOYFRIEND NUMBER 2

one wrong mistake and out you go

2010-03-31T14:07:00.005+08:00

finally, today's my off day. i need to recuperate. which means, i need a lot of rest to be energised again tomorrow afternoon. damn you work. and from 1/4/2010-10/4/2010 i won't be having any off day. so sad! pft. i am quite anxious that at 8.30pm tonight, i will be heading down to clementi :)) here are my roster!

thursday (3-11pm)
friday (2-11pm)
saturday (9-6pm)
sunday (3-11pm)

because i've got some plans on thursday night so i wanna work afternoon the next day. then i've got plans on saturday. so i wanna work afternoon on sunday. can't wait for pay day. i need some money to support myself for the next two weeks. then i can start shopping :) i'm excited! anyway, my life is in rush. everything is so rushing. i need it to slow down. what's more, i am very busy & tired with work. damn it! oh btw, work has been pretty fine so far. after a week, i haven't hate it yet. i love my work mates. heh k bye!

27 march

2010-03-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

Two days ago, I went Zouk. Marco V was great! :D
Basically I forgot how I got there.
Whatever it is, I had fun!

Apologies for the lack of updates. Due to the fact that half the day I'm working and the other half is spent on personal issues. Well sometimes, I am just plan lazy. Heh heh.

:)

2010-03-26T01:20:00.003+08:00

My blog song is inspired by Zool because this song comes from him!
And I swear the first part of the song is meant to be mute!

paradox

2010-03-22T08:48:00.000+08:00

starbucks

2010-03-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

you

2010-03-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

Eisley

2010-03-15T16:50:00.001+08:00

eisley by Dee Seconds featuring TOMS shoes

I am addicted to Polyvore. I wouldn't stop creating my style. Lol :)

Baby tell me how you love me now

2010-03-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

There's something about him that got me hooked unintentionally. Well, have you ever been in a situation when you wanna get serious with someone but he/she doesn't seem to show any interest. But when he/she is about to, someone else came in showing that he/she is very keen in being serious with you? And you'll end up in confusion every single day? Asked friends about their opinions but hey, it's me that matters. Who I wanna be with and who I think I like the most. Some of my close friends chose to cross the line by intruding my privacy; checking my handphone, asking me this and that. Whoa, I was fine with it at first, until it went overboard. I had to shout to make them comprehend but deep inside, I know their intentions and of course, I feel guilty about that. "Aku sayang kamu bodoh" has been said quite frequently by someone. God, can this world be any more complicating? Pfft, anyway if you have been missing out. I got a new full-time job at Polo Ralph Lauren which I'll be starting next week. I got a strong feeling that I'll be really busy, and I can't be spending so much time of clubbing anymore. I swear I'll try to head down for Marco V's this 27th.

Tuesday 2nd March~

2010-03-12T08:24:00.002+08:00

Dear someone

2010-03-09T16:52:00.002+08:00

Been meeting the usuals even during off days! Last night was one of the great nights. Thanks Haiqel, Suhaimi, Rafie, Kai, Nizam and Shahdam for the chaotic night @ JP. HEH. And thanks Zool for the ride home and Naim for the lending of helmet. HEH! :D

What is love?

2010-03-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. Its not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

2010-03-06T22:12:00.001+08:00

I will miss you.

2010-02-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to have much time to spend on leisure. Instead, 10 hours per day, 6 days per week will be filled with endless work. And yes, of course, the best part is money. I'll be starting work pretty soon. Saving 1K per month will be enough for a licence and motorbike as well right? Lol. And no, I am officially date-less so I shan't bother about 'em. Friends and family are enough to make me feel complete and happy. My week has been undenialy chaotic. Well, it started off yesterday. In just a day, it changes everything. I swear I shouldn't have gone out yesterday. Because if I did not, such awful things wouldn't have happened. I apologize for making it happen, friends. I almost got everyone involved in a super massively useless and pathetic fight. Off to sleep now. Pay day is tomorrow! Nights world.

pictures galore

2010-02-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST WEEKENDS :D

I have my own problems

2010-02-25T18:30:00.003+08:00

Dear C, I am disappointed in you. You know I like you right from the start. You know it 'cause I wouldn't have done that if I don't. But why do you have to leave me undone?

:)

2010-02-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

Someone brings you down and break you and humiliate you and do all those things just to see you suffer. So what? Smile at them. Walk away without any means of retaliations. Your own happiness is the only revenge.

Pleasure's mine.

2010-02-19T01:23:00.004+08:00

Now that he's here. And I know that he will always be there for me, I shall kill those insecurities that has been killing me softly since day one itself. Though I know it infuriates him, he should comprehend this whole situation first, right? Yeah, I am a jealous person. I get envious easily! >:( But you know what, I will try to shake it off. I was reading my old blog which is very dusty right now. Lol, and I did mentioned his name on a few of my posts. I typed this

"and i love ____ cuteface for being sucha helpful partner"
"somemor that ____ working at the lobby and hafiz too."

Pardon me for my poor command of English but that was ages ago when I had my first job. Plus, that was my first few days knowing him! Lol, this boy got me reminiscing about the old times! Proud to say, I miss the past. It has been close to three years now. We're all grown ups! :D
Alright, anyway a lot of NEW things has been happening into my life lately. I have been applying jobs. I am very enthusiastic when it comes to jobs. Tomorrow will be another interview day and I hope Khahila won't wake up late again. Amat just chat with me to say that he wants to catch Percy Jackson with me tomorrow! And it's on him. Woah, why are people so kind to me these days? ^^V And hehe, someone wanna meet me eh tomorrow? Someone rindu baby dia eh? Lol. Ok I am like stuck lor but I ain't sure which plan to go with. I is very fickle-minded, as always you know! And Weah wanna meet up too. Yay? :D Oh, I am very much craving for seafood. Hint to ____. I need 'em gastronomic enjoyment I'd long for and you've been pestering to have! :(

This is all that I can say

2010-02-17T19:07:00.001+08:00

My Lovely

2010-02-17T18:43:00.003+08:00

You came back out of the blue. And now I can't stop thinking of you.

Riverside Motherfucker

2010-02-17T14:57:00.002+08:00

Not quite an addiction yet but some kind of a chilling moment for now.

Ahh, I feel so wonderful

2010-02-17T03:58:00.003+08:00

So all this while people has been seeing me as the bad one just by one's mouth. You know, some people just got this grudge against me that they feel so free to make up stories just so more people will hate me. Well, I cant do anything to stop these people. But what goes around, comes around. Soon, people will find out the truth. You see, as bad as I can be, I don't go round making people unhappy and doing things I ain't supposed to do PURPOSELY. I know that I'm not that kind of a bitch. I know I wont go overboard because I cant bear the consequences. Whatever it is, I just have to swallow every shit that they give me. I know myself, I really do. I'm glad someone wanted to hear me out and now, she knows every bit of the story. I expect no more hate tags from now. Everything isn't completely true.

Anyway, today was the day I've longed for. I got this urge to you know what and I got it. Thanks Izuan for everything. It wasn't what I expected but hell yeah it was worth every second. On the other hand I feel guilty but hey what's done is done so I shall appreciate it. I never thought Izuan could sacrifice, just to make me satisfied. All in all, I honestly am triumphant because of him. Meet up again soon :)

I've got so much more to say but it's 4am right now and I think I should hit the sack. I'm shagged. Will update later. Bye world! :)

Who wants to be alone

2010-02-16T16:22:00.002+08:00

"Don't take me home till the sun comes up"

if you got enemies, means you got character

2010-02-15T23:06:00.004+08:00

I MISS KHAHILA.
And how could I not be happy with people like her around me?

5 feb preview

2010-02-11T10:03:00.005+08:00

I would like to say thanks to Khahila, Effa, Weah, Hazy, Feona, Macky, Chuckee, Hady, Mustaqqim, Dinie, Natasha, Arep, Ira and Wira for being there that night :D
You guys were really an awesome bunch!

6 Feb preview

2010-02-07T21:23:00.003+08:00

MORE OF THE PICTURES SOON! ♥

Last night!

2010-02-07T19:35:00.001+08:00

CALVIN HARRIS IS AWESOME. HE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES LAST NIGHT. NO DOUBT, HAZY. HE'S FUCKING CUTE! AND IT'S ALL WORTH IT! :D

2010-02-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

Look, you people who know nothing about me. I’m giving you the breakdown here. There are two types of people in this world - those who know how to have pure fun, and those who have no life in their poor souls. I don’t care which one you are categorized under, but listen, there is nothing wrong with having fun.